Hello again WordPress. It’s been awhile…but wow, what a roller-coaster I’ve been on for the past few months.
In my last entry, I wrote about my mom being diagnosed with cancer. A couple months after that entry, she was diagnosed with a second cancer. She didn’t cry while we were at the hospital, but for me, I’ve never cried so much in my life. We’ve gone through many bumps in the road…lots of hospitalizations, waiting around for test results, code-blues, prayers from the hospital priest, ER visits, etc. We are still battling the cancers, but I’ve realized that my mom is the toughest woman I know. There’s lots of tears, frustration, waiting, but in the midst of everything, lots of love and a better appreciation for family, time, and the small victories in life.
After seven long years of knowing and falling in love with “E”, things finally came to an end. He never gave me respect of explaining why things never worked and providing some form of closure for me, but I will be okay. It just took me longer than usual to learn that I do not deserve to be promised all the empty promises he made and treated like I do not really matter at all. I started attending single’s events and found myself being more guarded, reserved, and skeptical that love exists for someone like me. During an event, I met “S” and we hit it off. Whatever this thing we have going on is…it has been very passionate to say the least. Last weekend, he looked me in the eye and asked how a woman like me exists. “You’re beautiful…and smart..how are you even real..” he asks. I’ve never had any man tell me something like this, and I am interested to see where this leads.
In my previous entries, I also wrote about how I found the right job for me. Fast forward a few months later, it didn’t turn out to be a right fit for my personality. I was making lots of money but I was so bored and frustrated. I ended up stepping down from my position and started a new job about 2.5 months ago. It is a paycut, but if I had a dream job in pharmacy, this job is it. I’m not going to specifically say where I work now..but I work in a government position where I get to deal with a lot of psychiatry and a more progressive healthcare model..which I love.
So all in all, this is what has been happening with me. I will update again..hopefully soon. 🙂